What’s the point….

I’ve had an awful week.

I’ve been sick. I have ZERO friends so I can’t talk to anyone.  I can only cry out to God and He works in His timing, not mine, so my head tends to overrun with every bad thought of every bad thing, decision, and bad word sent my way.

I truly want to give up.  Even though I know this isn’t the answer to things and I am only speaking out of a weakened state, that is the consensus of how I feel.  Save for my youngest son, I don’t feel like anyone would really be upset if I was no longer around.  I feel like most people hate me and that my existence is unnecessary.  No one listens to me and if I was just out of the way then their lives would be easier because what little I do is unappreciated.

I’ve been told I contribute nothing to the household so much that I believe it.

I text people and I’m not worth being bothered with a reply.

I don’t understand the world and it doesn’t understand me.

 

I am so done with it all.

 

What to say…

What does one do when they feel the need to write something of significance, even if for one’s own posterity, but is sick of the 140-character hate-filled mindset of Twitter or the whiny repetitiveness of Facebook?  I guess that is where a Return to the Blog has to come back into one’s life.

I used to write daily in a blog.  Anyone remember the Yahoo 360 days?  Good times.  I wrote daily, diligently, and with purpose.  Then life got busier, 360 folded up, and the Microwave Mouthpieces of MySpace, Twitter, and Facebook took over.  Suddenly, there was no place for people like me.

For various reasons over the years, I have been run off Facebook a couple of times and MySpace became a non-factor.  As for Twitter, unless you are in a daily hashtag combat with what is making people angry at the moment, no one cares what someone who has less than 300 followers thinks.  Twitter, for now, is most useful to me in that I can get general local news, weather, and a few sports updates. Of course, I have found a few like-minded people, who only want to bring positive words and beautiful pictures to the masses, so there’s that.

I have tried restarting my blog several times.  I cannot stay consistent.  I know part of this is the fact I suffer nearly daily from migraines and I do have a hard time focusing.  HOWEVER, my boys are older now, and maybe I will have more time to write.  I am not sure what topics I will cover. I do have a variety of things that interest me. I enjoy photography, crafting, and actually trying projects I find on Pinterest.  I also enjoy a wonderful relationship with my LORD and Savior, Jesus Christ.  Know that at the onset.

This page will be a little of everything, and a whole lot of Jesus.